Series Two; Blog Sixty-Eight
“The castle that provides our security also walls us in.” – Unknown
Sometimes people think that being in control gives the freedom to do as you wish. This does not square up with the results for those who obsess about being in control. People think that if they have enough money they will have control of their lives through financial security. Yet, the greater your need for security and the greater your dependence upon material possession, the less freedom you have. The things you rely upon become binding chains and you become your own jailer.
In recovery, addicts grasp for control. They declare they will do anything to avoid relapse. They establish a white-knuckle grip to avoid backsliding. They double their fists in an attempt to not let go of control. Usually this closes their heart to the possibility of freedom. Recovery requires an open heart. Letting go of control is a counterintuitive measure that makes no sense to a recovering addict. It feels like free falling because it is.
You must be willing to take a leap of faith and let go of controlling results. Free falling requires an open heart in believing that your Higher Power will free fall with you. You will land at the only place you can control which is being true to your heart. You can marshal behaviors that ground you and bring you back to center. However, you cannot control the results that come into your life in any appreciable way through your own will power. There must be a willingness to let go of control. This is a difficult step in recovery to embrace.
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